domingo, 11 de diciembre de 2016

I'm in peace

In october I turned 30, I look like 22 but I have already lived 3 decades. Even if It feels good when peopl says that I look younger, I know that I'm not and I want to do  what all grown up people do. At thi point, most of my friends are married or living with their partners. I've been thinking about my status, why I am still single? I have dated, I have loved, then why I am still alone?
For some time these questions tortured me, is it about being pretty, or smart or what is it? Then one day I met a guy and forgot about eveything. At first I didn't want to get too much ivolved with him, but just couldn't. He was all I ever wished, smart, hardworked, he valued family more than anything, and I thought he loved me. We spent together some months and I was really happy during that time. Then one day a friend of mine told me that a friend of hers was talking with him through an online dating site. He said to her, that she was single, had no girlfriend or kids, was looking for a good woman to spend life with and that she was so beautiful and he wanted to met her.
At first It was hard to believe for me, I decided not to tell him instantly but I wanted to check if that was true. What I did was to ask him  if he thought I was a bad person but he never asked. When he talked back again he said we couldn't meet anymore. I knew it was because of the other girl, but didn't say anything. After week we met and as I knew I wasn't going to be able to speak much I wrote him a letter, telling him how I felt about him, how happy I was when we were together and how he was all I ever wanted. I wanted to hear his version about the events, yet all he said  was that he told me that because he was too stressed. Never said a word about the other girl, neither did I. He wanted to kept our relationship, but I said goodbye. I told him I hope he finds a beautiful woman as he wanted, wished all the best and leave.
I cried all my way home and spend all night thinking. Next morning I woke up knowing tha I'm happy being alone. That day I decided I was not looking for a guy anymore, if someone is made for me, he will appear at some point. Meanwhile, I will continue my life and I will do all that makes me happy including having a baby on my own.

sábado, 10 de diciembre de 2016

2 years, nine months and 5 days

That's the time off I've taken. So many things have happened during this time, I found a new job, I quitted, find a new one, travel, moved to other country, turned 30 years old and finally returned home.
Fortunately, when I chose a date to start ttc, I knew there were some things that I was going to do, and that's why I choosed 2018.
When december is finished, I will start my TTC countdown from 12 and I need to solve some things. My main concerns are:
>Which hospital I will chose to have my baby and as a consequence
>Will I use private treatment or the subsidate one?
>Tell my family about my plans (my close friends know about it and support me)
>Save money, because I know that I will spend more than what I have planned
>Open my academy, not related with TTC but Its something I want to do before having babies
Now that I'm starting my TTC for real I will start blogging more often. I wish I can find some of my new blogger friends again :)

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